Day 619

I was looking back over my blog today after many months absent, 8 to be exact, and what a journey!  I love the honesty and the story it tells, a time capsule of madness and beauty,  I love that I wrote it and that I transformed in it and through it. Today, approaching the 2…

Day 365!!

Being sober for one year feels like a long, slow exhale. It feels good, like putting on slippers after a long day, like I am safe and warm.  It feels like I have a light inside of me that shines, no matter what else is going on in my life.   Like I have a…

Day 329

329 days ago I was I mess.  One reason I know this is because I just cleaned up, AKA deleted, dozens of drunk, messy pictures from our computer desktop.   It was cringe worthy, it was freeing, it was also a lot harder than I had expected.  It’s funny, going back through those photos of…

Nine months!

This is the third time I have been 9 months sober.  The first two, I walked away with an actual baby, this time the baby I have been gestating is more of a metaphysical type and has many more months of development to go! 9 months and life is a completely different world, my relationships…

Six Months!

What started out as a journey to quit drinking has slowly been evolving into one of the most important, most exciting,  journeys of my life. The journey to find out what I really value, what I hold dear, what I need and what I want, what my body feels healthy doing, and what it doesn’t.  The…

Day 144

Nearing the five month sobriety mark and roads are a bit bumpy because this is new territory, I have never been sober this long and while that is a GREAT thing, it is also a thing I am not 100% sure what to do with. I have been acting like a person I don’t want…

Day 137

It’s been awhile and a lot has gone on in life since I last posted.  Along with “Superbowl Party” and “Karaoke night” sadly we can now add “death of a loved one” and “funeral” to the list of things I have made it through sober.  We lost our 19 year old nephew last weekend and…

Day 112

Celebrated 112 sober days by doing a fun dance workout in galaxy print leggings with my daughter.   I previously wouldn’t wear these leggings because I thought the pattern on them made me look fat…. I still think that, but now I give way less fucks about that sort of thing.  This is a huge…

Day 102

Great weekend away with my hubby and kids.  I love when we can escape for a few days.  This was my first night in  hotel sober since forever!  Sobriety felt good.  I didn’t sleep worth a damn but still felt much better in the morning than I would have with a hangover. We got back…

Day 100

Today I have been sober for 100 days and I feel deep in my bones that my life will never be the same as it once was.  This does not scare me anymore. Everyday, no matter what else I accomplish, I have been accomplishing this.  And THIS is the basic foundation for everything else.  It…

Day 92

If I look back and trace the path I took this year, it looks like an unhealthy EKG!  Jagged ups and downs, with some mellow dips and stretches here and some straight, calm lines there.  Its all over the place and I was too. I started this year sober and I will end it the same way,…

Day 81

It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas around here, Christmas break that is. Kids are out of school for two weeks, which means sleeping in a bit for me, not them.  Too many video games for them, not me.  And hopefully some good quality, old fashioned, family time for all of us! More and…